I'm in love.. Am I still? Or was it in the past?
I remember feeling really happy.. Missing somebody..
Wishing I could be right by his side..

Yes, I did.. What I did not ask myself is.. "What's after that?"
What's after that if you get to be by his side..
Be his company? Okay, sure... But does he feel the same way?

It does take a few to know whether they are the right one.
I know I did found the one.. but I guess he don't feel like I'm the one for him
It seems like he needs something more.. I can't blame him for it.
It's hard for a guy to be commited on his first relationship with a stranger

Although I want to be selfish and have him all for my own
I don't want him to be miserable all his life if he's spending them with me
Should I let go? Or should I try harder and spark things up again hoping they will go back to the way it used to be
I'll try.. but it's so hard to let go when you still have feelings for them..

Giving time to him is also giving time to myself
And yes I am very glad and excited that we are not fighting anymore,
I still feel the hurt.. on the "almost giving up on us" part

I don't think we will be as happy as a couple of years ago

(I hope for the best)

After all these had happened, it takes a really long time to get over it
I know I can.. but knowing that he couldn't cope with it..
Sigh.. it makes me want to lose hope..
(I don't want to lose hope on you)

For now, I will do my best to make things better..
But if I can't get the old him and his heart back..
Then... it's no use either to force him to like me..

Sad, I didn't know my love life would go this way. Guess I can't do it all. can I?
:(

But keeping an optimistic mind.. life still goes on.
I will admit I won't get over him that fast if we ever get separated..
Nevertheless I will try to climb back up and be happy again.
I know I will... but I need time.. maybe a lot of T-I-M-E

hmm... do you still feel me in there?